Need for Speed

I love to drive, I love to drive fast! I wanted to be a race car driver when I was a kid.

But I absolutely go-all-hulk when I have to drive in traffic. This weekend, we were in the Bay Area for a wedding and everywhere we went, there was traffic. I thought I was pretty good at anticipating the traffic by allocating an extra 30mins wherever we had to go but still, we were always in traffic, day or night and always late. Made me angry.

There were also the overall bad drivers that just won’t get out of my way. Made me angry.

Let’s not forget the sucky rental car that had no power and weighs like paper. Had to step all the way down on the gas pedal just to get some speed out of it. When I did get the speed, it felt like the car was going to fly off the road cuz it was so light. Made me angry.

But this also made me think. Why was I angry? Pride, arrogance, impatience, selfishness, self-centerness? Check. All things that prevent me from following Christ.

But I know this is all part of God's refining process of shaping me to be more like him.

Not going the speed that I want? God's timing and pace is perfect. Change takes time. Learning and growing has its own pace.

Traffic? Well just shows that I’m not alone on the road.

Bad drivers? Everyone is just as fallen and sinful as me. People might block me from my destination but God always provides a way. Sometimes I think God intentionally put people who are going at a slower pace than me, just to slow me down.

The rental car?  Not what I wanted but God gives me exactly the tools I need to accomplish his will. It might not be the talents and gifts that I wish I had but God knows what I need and provides abundantly.